A life I've chosen.

Previously,I have my own blog in friendster but blogging here is definitely, safer.Here's the new shifting.Well, it comes from experiences.Looking at the past, I chuckled at my own mistakes,bloopers and blunders.Truly, stories from the past, gives me pointers for the present.Without having to bear any grudges anymore, I have chosen a life to live. Sounds complicated huh?I wish I can start it all over again, I wish time will pause for just one sweet moment in my life I wish this and I wish that. Nothing can be rewind. If that's the case, we are allow to make mistakes over and over again and I will not be sitting here and talk about the past. There's nothing in the past for me to keep or brood over cause I have already madeup my mind. But there's always something that I would like to figure out the answer.And I guess I wil never have the chance to ask the question to someone.I need to learn and let go, probably never get over him.Looking at someone from behind, who once bring you joy and laughter, the best moment you've ever had, without even talking to that person, how much more it would hurt myself?At times he might be sitting just right beside you, but you'd probably never know him.And he probably trying to forget everything.I'm not clinging on to anything, anymore. Past hurts push me further and I know I will go thru many things in later life.
Truly, we never comprehend God's ways.Never.He let me go thru all the hills and slopes, let me fall again and again, let me cling on at certain things which dissapoint me at the very end. I'd probably never understand what He' s trying to prepare me for, but I know everytime when I came out from this circle of dissappoinments and struggles, it actually changes me, to be a stronger person. Things happen for a reason.. Who knows God is preparing someone to catch me when I fall. We never know until we witness it ourselves..